Today I woke up suddenly to a call. Didn't sleep well at all and almost fell asleep without making a post, but I have good news! The apartment in thailand has been found and now it's being renovated and everything will be ready for my arrival:3
Expect the most beautiful background in my photograifes in the whole world!
I can't wait to get there.....
And the other news is that tomorrow I'm picking up my Christmas costume and I'll start posting Christmas pictures soon :3 I'm sure you're not expecting what my costume will be like and you might be surprised but you'll love it.
and right now I'm eating instant noodles and trying not to fall asleep while I'm writing the text and weird songs I make up start playing in my head, it always happens when I want to sleep.
And as usual I'm happy and grateful to have you!
and by the way, the panty picture of me looking like the hulk is already in front of your eyes
#skinny #teen #petite #abs #alt #small #slender #fyp #geek #nerdy
For some reason unknown to me, these pictures were taken at the worst quality instead of the one I usually shoot at... but I noticed it too late and didn't have time to change the mode.
But I hope you like it even so... Sorry
The mood is good but very annoying is the fact that the recommendation system on Fansly is very broken for me. last time it worked well in spring. It was good in the summer too. However, fall and winter were fatal and the site almost stopped showing my content in recommendations :C Trying not to be sad about it
#skinny #teen #alt #butt #ass #booty #leather #geek #nerdy #fyp
And here is my report on broken things for photos.
Mirror - the stand is broken, so the mirror now only stands in one place and hopefully won't fall over.
All tripods - literally all of my tripods are broken.
A few ring lights - but that's no big deal because I've started using a different light.
Also about 5 remote controls lost and broken :D
I'll buy a tripod in Thailand, the light problem is relatively solved, the remote control comes with the tripods so that's good too. The only problem is the mirror, since it's expensive and fancy, I want to try to buy a mount somewhere and fix it myself or with my dad's help. But there will be another mirror in thailand anyway so that problem is temporarily abandoned
Meanwhile got and healed a thousand bruises because I keep crashing into everything and am generally clumsy for some reason. Why else do I break everything?
Luckily I haven't broken or lost a smartphone in a long time. but the smartphone I had for the first 2 months as model had a sad story. It was traumatized by fireworks
I changed my mind about doing that Christmas photo set I was planning! I have a new idea and I like it better. I really hope I can do it in time.....
But there's still time, right?
And once again you can see me in a gloomy look. If you are tired of dark images give me a sign! Anyway in Thailand there will be light and sunny pictures so don't worry...
#skinny #teen #alt #petite #small #geek #nerdy #gamergirl #slender
Had such a sweet sleep tonight! It was so blissful..... There's nothing more pleasant than a good quality sleep.
And also my dad came to visit today, so I put all my work aside and spent the day with him, had a nice chat and he brought me some fruit :3.
The mood is wonderful and I hope it stays that way
#skinny #teen #feet #toes #soles #footfetish #foot #petite #alt #gamergirl
The day ended so quickly... I didn't have time to finish anything lol.. I'll go to bed and take care of my duties as soon as I wake up
That's why today is such a minimalistic post
Back to the post about apathy.
I want to add some additional information.
Since I'm facing it right now and I'm afraid to forget.
First of all, try to solve the problems that put pressure on you. The longer the same problems pressurize you, the higher the chance of falling into an apathetic state. Don't put it off for too long. A simple example is cleaning your apartment. The longer you put it off, the worse your condition.
Take care of your health and try to do sports or any other activity. Physical activity is good not only for your body but also for your mind.
We are human beings. Complex machines and at the same time very simple machines. Take a variable out of the equation and you get a skew. There has to be balance in everything.
It's easy to say, but it's very difficult to follow all these recommendations. The main thing is not to berate yourself if something doesn't work out. Be kinder to yourself, please.
#skinny #teen #egirl #goth #alt #petite #small #gamergirl #geek #nerdy
That's funny. I was chatting with friends on discord for the first time in a long time. After a difficult day where my nervous system went crazy. We were discussing apartment rentals and looking for options. One of my friends suddenly started telling stories about ancient Rome (He's a guy). In general, it wasn't the first time guys I know brought up the Roman Empire and said something about it. But all the girls I've interacted with and that includes me never think of the Roman empire..... This meme scares me.
How often do you think of the Roman Empire?
#skinny #teen #egirl #petite #alt #goth #gamerigrl #geek #nerdy
I thought I'd found a good apartment, but it's all taken by someone else! No luck, no luck. I keep looking! I want to take for you the most colorful and beautiful photos in Thailand with beautiful backgrounds.
Also I didn't have nightmares today but I slept very badly and woke up and went back to sleep all the time, it's a very strange state. hopefully I'll sleep well tonight.
And by the way, the most effective advice for me about apathy turned out to be to think about the results of actions and to take small steps towards the goal without putting pressure on myself
#Teen #skinny #petite #goth #alt #gamerigirl #egirl #geek #nerdy #fyp
So guys, life is complicated and you need to work on yourself to make life easier
please take care of yourself. I will also try to take care of myself
#ass #butt #booty #skinny #teen #tiny #egirl #goth #alt #gamergirl
Hi! So. Let's talk about apathy, shall we?
It's an important enough problem that it's affected a huge number of people, myself included. Thank you all for your responses.
To begin with, vitamin D deficiency can be a serious problem that also leads to apathy.
Try setting small goals for yourself to start with and focus not on what you need to do, but on what effect you will get out of it. For example, the joy of a delicious meal or the pleasant feeling of a clean body. Remember that if you visualize something too big, you will feel like you are carrying a mountain. You won't be able to motivate yourself under that kind of pressure. You will just berate yourself for being weak and fall back into apathy.
Sometimes apathy can be the result of getting too much simple dopamine from watching short videos and so on, try to get more dopamine naturally by doing your own activities.
Balance. Sometimes strong positive emotions can be devastating and we can feel apathetic afterwards, try balancing. Otherwise your life, like mine, will become a real roller coaster of your morale. When you feel energized don't overwork yourself too much so you don't fall back into apathy.
Never blame yourself for the state of apathy. It is a natural reaction of your body and just as you can't make your body just feel apathetic you can't make it stop feeling apathetic. Try to keep yourself busy with something for some it's walking, for some it's socializing with new people, for some it's new hobbies.
#skinny #teen #tiny #petite #alt #goth #egirl #gamergirl #geek #nerdy
Hi! yesterday after I was in a good mood in the evening something happened to me most likely after I got tired of looking for apartments and didn't find anything good.
So I ended up having bad dreams I had nightmares. I literally woke up crying and my pillow was all wet, but I felt better in the morning, although not right away.
It's weird that such a small thing would take me out of my normal state.
By the evening I started to feel absolutely normal and decided to make new photos I hope you like. by the way During these photos I had some part of the mirror fly off and it broke. I was looking for the part all over the apartment but I couldn't find it. I hope I will find it later and I can fix the mirror.
#teen #skinny #tiny #petite #small #goth #emo #alt
Booty post day
Hello everyone, in front of your eyes is a lazy hack who has uploaded unpublished old photos.
I've been looking at apartment rentals all day and my brain overheated...
A little more and smoke will come out of my head xD
And also in this state I tried to write a recommendation, taking into account your advice, but it was a bad idea, it is better to do it for a rested mind
Someday I'll start doing things in order of importance
#teen #skinny #tiny #ass #booty #butt #alt
Do you think it's just a costume for a photo? No. I've actually been sleeping in these pajamas for a few days now :3
Today I figured out the wires under the table, I banged my head on the table many times xD
But now it will be nice and neat. and I think I've found a solution to the garland problem, I'll show you later, I haven't received the package yet with what I need for this
Otherwise, everything is fine, in the coming days I will start doing custom photos and also make new photos for the profile. Today was the last day of photos in pajamas, by the way
#skinny #tiny #teen #costume #kawaii #geek #nerdy #fyp
Today I went to the post office to pick up a Pikachu constructor. I didn't expect this cutie to be such a little bun
sometimes it seemed to me that it would be easier to assemble with tweezers xD
I also decorated my room yesterday and cleaned my apartment all day today :3
Very tired but I wanted to check the difference in the quality of low light photos.
Later we will compare in bright light in thailand.
I have a technical question for you... I need a dimmer for a garland but the garland I bought does not have the parameters listed anywhere. how can I find the right dimmer? I just want the garland not to be so bright.
I've already found dimmers for flexible neon, but not for garland
Oh, hello? What phone do you want to see pics from in the future?
It's a funny situation.
Photo on the right: my old samsung a52 which I bought for $400 in 2021 and have been with it almost the entire time of my modeling account.
Photo on the left: it's a samsung s23 ultra. its current price isn't hard to find but it's several times more and it's a flagship phone that I just got.
you can see the difference better when you enlarge the photo
You've probably seen a bunch of ads and incredible camera specs etc?
Let's start with the 200 mp mode is dead to me as that mode is broken. Why is it broken? It's only available in normal photo mode and after you take a photo the samsung software does an automatic photo refining which the whole samsung community is trying to disable but it's impossible to do. This refining turns the photo into a real ugliness over saturated colors, shadows and light. it is impossible to use.
Total we are left with pro mode with 50 mp where refining is not automatically applied. So in comparison from samsung s23 ultra we have a photo from pro mode with 50 megapixels and 12 megapixels in pro mode from samsung a52...
I feel weird
Hello! Happy first day of winter to you!
Today I went to the doctor, there is very good news. my tumor has shrunk a lot and I will be able to fly to Thailand in January :3
I need to continue the treatment, but the worst is behind me
cheers cheers
I continue to get answers to the question about apathy and prepare a text for you
Hello! Got so many replies from you, thank you very much, will try to prepare a post with advice soon :3
I have great news! Today I received a new phone from my dad, so the new photosets will be better :3
Many thanks to my wonderful family, I love them very much and they are wonderful, I used to have various problems with my family, but now it's close to the ideal of relationships, support, mutual understanding and warmth
Stay tuned for new photos!
*this photos still from an old phone
So I'd like to ask you an important question. You can answer in the comments, you can write me a private message, you can message me on reddit if you want.
How do you or someone you know struggle with total apathy?
Apathy is a companion in my life but right now it's at its most acute and serious for me. I would like to collect your tips and with your permission make a post with the best tips, maybe it will help not only me
#feet #toes #footfetish #soles #ff #teen #tiny #alt #gamergirl #egirl
Getting used to the new meds, a little difficult but mostly ok. My work capacity is obviously not the best, but I have one body and I don't have another body so I try not to berate myself. Scolding myself won't make it better.
If you are also experiencing some difficulties and are not as productive in something as you would like to be, try to be kinder to yourself, take care of yourself
#skinny #teen #tiny #egirl #kawaii #gamergirl #geek #nerdy #fyp
I'd like to say thank you. Yeah, it's not Thanksgiving again, but who's gonna stop me?
Thank you to all those who are so kind to me, who are patient, who stay with me even at times when it is very hard for me, who are happy when something good happens to me. I appreciate your support. Almost everyone I've been able to communicate with here has been very interesting people, although many of you are also shy and maybe don't even realize how wonderful they are.
I hope everything goes well for you guys, you deserve it.
I'm not going anywhere. It might have seemed like goodbye, but I just wanted to tell you that
Good morning, everyone!
I suddenly realized that most people probably haven't seen my very old DO S cosplay, a costume I used a while back. So catch some pics to rekindle memories or in case you haven't seen it :3
Is it worth redoing this cosplay?
#skinny #cosplay #teen #goddes #mistress #goth #alt #leather #femdom #latex
I've been doing a little too much since I started thinking I'm healthy. I'm gonna try to be more mindful of my energy and not overwork myself.
Wasn't it Thanksgiving recently? Even though I didn't get to thank you on Thanksgiving, I'm always very grateful to all of you
#skinny #teen #goddes #mistress #goth #alt #leather #femdom #latex
Hey everybody, things are getting better. Yay!
and today we're looking at a DO S suit without the DO S x)
My cold is now just a runny nose and I can consider myself healthy :3
I also went to the doctor today and am starting a good treatment for the tumor (My doctor is so kind and nice to me it's always a pleasure).
My leg unfortunately still hurts but it doesn't matter anymore.
My mood is back to normal and things are getting better so I am slowly getting back to full time work, I hope you are happy to see me back in good spirits.
I was also in a few stores today and realized how important kind words are for me in my normal life. The usual Hello, thank you, have a nice day, glad to help you, etc is a balm to my soul. I really like to be polite and kind to the staff and when they treat me as kindly as I treat them, it's nice. They have a hard enough job so let's be kind and understanding with them.
love you all <3
#skinny #teen #goddes #mistress #goth #alt #leather #femdom #latex
just a spontaneous fact. with my genes, I'm forbidden to be a vegetarian.I found out this thanks to the tests and the conclusion of a geneticist (I was with this doctor to get permission to treat my tumor)
