I got money to spend and places to be. š„± #cindymoon #asia
I got money to spend and places to be. š„± #cindymoon #asia
2023-10-09 20:38:57 +0000 UTC View Post
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If anyone wants to be degraded, humiliated or more im in the..
If anyone wants to be degraded, humiliated or more im in the mood to try it today. Send me a tribute and write something to get us started. I could spend time with him but I think Iād rather give my energy to my fans instead. I donāt want to waste any more of my lifetime on someone who makes my life harder than it needs to be.
2023-10-09 20:33:27 +0000 UTC View PostYou have me all fucked up writing essays to strangers on the..
You have me all fucked up writing essays to strangers on the internet cuz Iām so stuck and desperate to be seen. One day itās going to be a sentence to you, one word answers and then one day just no answers to your texts, calls or messages.
2023-10-09 20:26:31 +0000 UTC View PostEvery fantasy you have, imagine it with me. š
Every fantasy you have, imagine it with me. š
2023-10-09 20:22:11 +0000 UTC View PostThanks for being here for me. š¹ Iāll edit and put some cont..
Thanks for being here for me. š¹ Iāll edit and put some content up for sale today. As always, VIP medal holders and patrons, send a rose to request bonus content, content to be unlocked, a voice note or for a little attention. š«£ Iām saying all the things out loud in my head I need to detach. Im not asking for a lot and he just doesnāt care or want this enough. Thatās out of my control and i will open my mind and heart for people that will add value instead of burdens and unnecessary strezz into my life. I need a best friend, not a worst enemy. I look forward to stronger and more rewarding connections. I am not crazy for wanting my needs met.
2023-10-09 20:21:11 +0000 UTC View PostLovers come and go but friends are forever. š
Lovers come and go but friends are forever. š
2023-10-09 20:13:54 +0000 UTC View PostDid you call for housekeeping?
Did you call for housekeeping?
2023-10-09 19:54:52 +0000 UTC View Post
I told him again I love him less and less every day. I don..
I told him again I love him less and less every day. I donāt know what else to do except give it to him plainly and honestly. Or I guess to keep saying it until it happens and Iām free of this mental cage I have with him. He says he loves me but he wonāt help me with any of the marketing, captions, photo taking, phot editing, social media or important things. Itās like Iām pulling teeth to try to get him to understand me and he hasnāt even helped enough. I feel so frozen, trapped, angry, regretful, confused, _____ and distracted. I feel like an idiot. I shouldnāt be getting upset over someone who doesnāt even comment on my Instagram or follow me. How did we get this far? Did I just think this is better than being alone? Is it just so rare for me to be attracted to someone that I donāt want to let go? Am I doing this because it felt worse to carry all of this by myself and is he doing less than nothing because he resents me for having a job that looks like im doing nothing? I am working in my head 24/7. If I was Britney Spears, wanting 7 fan pages to help manage millions of fans from each continent and instead of telling me yea, I can help manage one you tell me I should be able to do it by myself then how can you expect anything other than rage, frustration and meltdowns? Get with the program so I can relax and be me. I wish I could share more. Maybe one day. He wonāt sell solo content and gets angry at me when I tell him he should. He accuses me of trying to make him gay and I donāt even have the energy to deal with that fighting. His mother was a hardcore catholic and his dad is a deadbeat so I wonder if that had any impact to how he is. I told him can you please just sell a shirtless selfie so I dont feel so obviously used and like heās mooching off my image while taking my followers and the money I need to save orphans, refugees and make sure Iām gonna be okay? He just gets rigid with insecurity even though heās 6ā6, built, smart and whatever just because I asked him to start selling shirtless pics and find some sugar mommas so I can stop sweating worrying about my rent AND his. (Which shouldnāt even be my responsibility.) I told him he can sell to women cuz women buy content, too. Especially older women and he goes into a fit as if heās scared of gay men or struggling with his own sexuality or something. I donāt care. Get off my dick and get out of my way. Give me our content that we can sell at the same time or donāt be surprised when I co-star with someone willing to give me the content right after we make it and is willing to buy their own ads. Pouring love into him hasnāt worked and I shouldnāt have to be in a position where I have to resort to being mean and strict when I am kind and soft at my core. I wish he had guy friends, brothers or a father figure because heās not a feminist Thereās nothing I can do or say that would ever get him to listen to me or see me in the light I deserve. Part of me thinks he loves me but the fear of being broke and āusedā by a seggs worker overrides it. Even though Iāve done more than enough for him. He is just as attached and confused as me I think, but with fear and resentment of me because Iām a seggs worker. He thinks my job is easy even though Iām clearly falling apart and canāt produce anything fantastic right now. I donāt even want to look at myself. Why wouldnāt you be happy for my success if my goal is to make so much money I could retire your mom or buy a house, maybe even be lucky enough to have kidz who donāt have to worry about college tuition if I could get that far? I donāt know he expects from me anymore when heās the source of my misery and gets in the way of everything Iāve been trying to do instead of helping me get to where I need. He keeps asking me to stop talking shit about him on the internet but he wonāt do anything to alleviate the pressure or workload. Not even 15 minutes of helping me clear up my Instagram or helping me match outfits. Iām Managing over 6 social media accounts by myself, 15-18 hours a day and he still acts like Iām doing nothing all day. Itās enraging to the point where I feel like I canāt focus on my VIPs and Iāmā¦ Frozen. Heās still not helping with anything important so thereās nothing left to do except to drift apart. I canāt keep carrying everything by myself. I donāt know why he keeps acting like it doesnāt make sense that I should answer messages while he helps with dishes and that I canāt do both at the same time. He wonāt even help me post memes while I edit photos, which sounds like a great job to me but he makes it sound like hell. I deserve someone who adds value to my life and helps me gets stuff done. Thereās no point in wasting my time tying to logic this with someone whoās intent on villainizing me for asking for help. Iām sorry to my followers for all the drama, pain, negativity and tea Iāve brought here. I needed to talk out loud about whatās been going on to people who can see outside of me and actually care about me. I havenāt been able to rely on him or myself to do more. Iāve gotten kinda asexual and traumatized at this point from my messages. I hope to be inspired again soon by someone whoās going to do and be more for me. Iāll be answering messages to nice people instead of spending time with him today. He doesnāt care. I donāt care.
2023-10-09 19:01:42 +0000 UTC View PostIām glad weāre broken up. Thereās plenty of people who would..
Iām glad weāre broken up. Thereās plenty of people who would co-star with me and then give me the content right after we make it. I donāt owe you anything. Not a week head start on selling content you rely on my image for, nothing. Especially when weāre fighting every day because I keep telling you my needs and you keep ignoring them. There are plenty of people that would love to bring me peace and support. I want to feel like I should get out of bed or want to brush my hair. I donāt get that with you. This is MY MONEY and Iām not arguing with someone who hasnāt given me a Christmas in 4 years.
2023-10-09 18:41:56 +0000 UTC View Post
Someone sent me $100 and I forgot about him again.
Someone sent me $100 and I forgot about him again.
2023-10-09 05:14:50 +0000 UTC View PostYou can love someone and respect someoneās desires/boundarie..
You can love someone and respect someoneās desires/boundaries of not getting pegged. Itās just tough for business. I asked if he could model the leash one of my angels gifted to me for a photoshoot like I did. He wasnāt up for it. I canāt make him want that and I donāt want to push. Iām working on a range of photo sets between dominant and submissive. The stuff yesterday was really good and Iāll make available for medal holders.
2023-10-09 04:54:14 +0000 UTC View PostWhatever, I need to go edit photos.
Whatever, I need to go edit photos.
2023-10-09 04:27:45 +0000 UTC View PostIf you canāt see how amazing of an opportunity it would be t..
If you canāt see how amazing of an opportunity it would be to serve ME as ur GODDESS, then you donāt deserve time with me. š¤·š»āāļø If you donāt have what it takes to help me earn MY MONEY, then you canāt be upset when I end up having to talk to people who CAN, WANT to and WILL.
2023-10-09 04:13:49 +0000 UTC View PostI hope you fall in love one day and that she does to you wha..
I hope you fall in love one day and that she does to you what you did to me.
2023-10-09 04:01:37 +0000 UTC View PostHeād rather lose me than help me, so be it.
Heād rather lose me than help me, so be it.
2023-10-09 03:41:35 +0000 UTC View PostIām single. If he wanted me he would have listened to me or ..
Iām single. If he wanted me he would have listened to me or made more effort. Remember that I used to love you. One day, im going to make it and youāre gonna wish you took pictures of me or told me I was beautiful.
2023-10-09 03:25:58 +0000 UTC View PostI kept telling him if things donāt change that heās going to..
I kept telling him if things donāt change that heās going to lose me. That I love him less and less every day. That I need someone who brings me peace, love and joy. Thereās never any real effort to provide that for me. I let him know for the 3rd time this weekend that we donāt have to see each other or talk to each other anymore after some more stupid comments he made. We made a little bit of b/g content and Iām okay shutting him out of my life after this. Everyone knows Iām miserable. He knows heās making me miserable and I give up. Heās making me do everything by myself. I need people who actually want me to succeed and are happy to help even if they donāt gain anything from it. I donāt want to be on guard, distrezzed, or write essays anymore on the internet. Itās on me to leave him so I can be the best version of me for my followers and most importantly me. Iāve given him more than enough time, energy and resources. Heās never cared enough, still doesnāt care enough to relieve some of the pressure and workload on me after 4 years and I just donāt care anymore. 4 years, no birthday presents, no anniversaries, no Christmas celebration or giftsā¦. Just turning me into a person I donāt even recognize anymore. You want to act like Iām the menace then enjoy being alone. I deserve more than what you pour into my life every day.
2023-10-09 03:08:03 +0000 UTC View PostWhat are some of your favorite places to visit? And why
What are some of your favorite places to visit? And why
2023-10-09 00:17:02 +0000 UTC View PostCatching up on sleep, enjoying new views and taking it easy...
Catching up on sleep, enjoying new views and taking it easy. š
2023-10-08 16:52:56 +0000 UTC View PostHe looked at me with his smug Canadian faceā¦ ātalking shit..
He looked at me with his smug Canadian faceā¦ ātalking shit about me again, eh?ā
2023-10-08 07:07:07 +0000 UTC View PostI could just write sensual captions here or I could save try..
I could just write sensual captions here or I could save try to lives instead Maybe both
2023-10-08 05:09:34 +0000 UTC View PostDo I have any trustworthy and caring subs in Bangladesh near..
Do I have any trustworthy and caring subs in Bangladesh near Coxās Bazar? Goddess is willing to let you serve if you are. I have plenty of tasks, quests and missions for you if you are in Southeast Asia. Feel free to let a friend know. If youāre rich/fortunate enough to complete my tasks without living there thatās acceptable, too.
2023-10-08 04:56:08 +0000 UTC View PostSomeone sent me 69$ and I forgot about him.
Someone sent me 69$ and I forgot about him.
2023-10-08 00:44:06 +0000 UTC View PostPosted some schitty screen shot of me in a maid outfit on IG..
Posted some schitty screen shot of me in a maid outfit on IG and it got more likes than my poems, my memes, my eccentric stuff, my food AND the pictures of Gang Gang. (The rescue dog) š¤£šš¤¦š»āāļøš¤£ Iām currently restricted from captioning or commenting. Thanks for any and all boosts. ššššš¹ I donāt believe any numbers on social media anymore, theyāre all delayed, different and/or fudged for all of us. Lol. Iāve learned so many things from my accounts. (Which I made for research purposes, obviously.) #cindymoon #research #onlyfans #socialmedia #conspiracytheory @maihero
2023-10-07 19:29:47 +0000 UTC View Post
